No more social income…?

I absolutely HATE lying; it just doesn’t make sense and it’s very difficult to maintain. And yet, sometimes like just now, to save your own ass from people who will never ever understand you, it needs to be done.
Had to tell the reintegration woman that I rarely go outside the door and IF, during the night or very early morning only. Why? I’ve noticed before that they don’t (want to!) understand that driving in your own car to the woods to recuperate in nature (and hide and make D-tours for every person you see), isn’t the same as going to a freaking building and work with people from 9 to 5.
They kepy repeating that they don’t see any reason for me to not work and that, because I receive a 1000 euros monthly, I should at least make effort in integrate in this society. I said I can’t from where I live now. It’s too busy outside for me to be able to even try. I often agree with “throwing oneself into the deep”, but it doesn’t simply always work. I would need my own house in a quiet, remote area AND live according my own schedule, rather than that from my mother.
Now